Global music sensation Billie Eilish delves into the profound impact her ever-changing hairstyles have had on her sense of identity. Renowned for her dynamic and eclectic hair transformations, the “Bad Guy” singer admits that her journey with hair dye led her to a point where she felt she had lost a crucial part of herself.
Recalling the period in 2019 when she dyed her hair green, Eilish expressed feeling unstoppable and exceptionally happy. However, as life unfolded with the challenges of COVID, the release of another album, and the natural progression of age, she found herself oscillating between moments of joy and moments of despair. Yearning for the euphoria of 2019, Eilish discovered that her quest for happiness had become intertwined with external factors beyond her control.
The introspective contribution to the Barbie soundtrack, titled “What Was I Made For?,” reflects Eilish’s contemplation of this internal struggle. She confessed to placing her happiness on material elements subject to change, leading to a realization of the transient nature of such sources of joy.
Eilish’s decision to adopt blonde hair during the release of her 2021 album, “Happier Than Ever,” was an attempt to align with the album’s optimistic title. However, the experience did not unfold as anticipated. Despite the initial fun, the blonde hair became a metaphorical costume, leaving Eilish feeling disconnected from her true self. She admitted to creating a whole aesthetic that eventually engulfed her, leaving her grappling with a loss of identity.
The Grammy-nominated artist has since returned to her signature black hair, now adorned with red roots. This shift symbolizes a reclaiming of authenticity and a departure from the entanglement she experienced during her blonde-haired phase.
As Billie Eilish anticipates five Grammy nominations for her song “What Was I Made For?” at the upcoming 2024 ceremony, including categories like Record of the Year and Best Music Video, she continues to navigate the complexities of fame and self-discovery in the ever-evolving landscape of the music industry.
